Overcoming and Powering Through the Uncomfortable

Happy Grateful Saturday afternoon to you all . Today’s Word of the day is Overcome? What does that word mean to you ? How does it affect your daily life ? Can it go Right or Left ? I Yesterday I did not come to you here or on the Pod Cast secondary to being under the weather honestly didn’t even read but maybe a page of a book yesterday. Got around to do the Bible App and other apps I utilize late last night. Today, is a new beautiful blessed day. Yesterday, I did happen to make one appointment on Zoom why do I tell you this ? The appointment I did attend was with my Doc. This appointment was unlike any other we have had. I recognized several things before and after the appointment. This appointment was exhausting unlike any other felt like a seizure after the fact, not quite to that extent as someone who has them. While the Doc and I were talking I had notes prepared ( highly advise that ) before I knew we went through both pages without me even thinking about it. We have to comfortable with the uncomfortable as hard as it is . I was explaining something he went deeper and found myself going deeper. Here is why I am mentioning this to say we went to uncomfortable spot was an understatement. Explaining to the Doc why I had not done much for the day and my head was knocking , we talked about the why of many things as we were talking and going deep I first noticed an increased headache, then I developed a pain in my back , followed by chest discomfort and severe nausea , before I knew it I was refluxing in a big way . I told the Doc when things started in my body and when they continued to other parts of the body. At one point I was sitting in my truck and thought I am really light headed and need to tell him I am not feeling well in case I go out . Again, didn’t stop , didn’t run , didn’t hide , didn’t distract just felt awful. As we continued and he asked questions at no time did read into what I was feeling. He asked why I felt that way to an experience I had ? Why do you feel that way. Did I really feel God looked at me negatively? Why I did feel like talking about this and feeling this way could lead to punishment from God? He asked me those things I was not willing to accept made me who I am ? He asked me if these things would not have happened would I be the person I am today and done the things I have ? He mentioned I need to work on self acceptance I told him I Love and accept myself I just can’t in this area . He gave me some suggestions on self acceptance. We closed the very exhausting session and I went back to what in all reality was a distraction but this time the distraction wasn’t truly one and part of the session from earlier in the day . I was bound and determine to do XYZ there were many obstacles but I persisted . One point the level of uncomfortable made me feel that there would definitely be punishment from God , including Guilt and Shame . Well XYZ occurred later that night I thought there is no way you will sleep and be prepared for wrath. I prayed last night with feeling that my praying was really going to get me punished This morning I woke up still a little headache but I am here was not struck down and do not have Guilt and Shame. Do not have a guilty conscience and getting ready to start vacation that didn’t get kicked off yesterday, but now getting ready to hit the road and those fears and concerns I mentioned to the Doc about the trip

are not there . Going to be honest having a little discomfort in my left arm but continuing through , not denying it , recognizing, asking why I feel this way at the same not feeding into it . In closing I told the Doc and man it hurt I did not want God to be mad at me for being so uncomfortable with the pain and knew he was doing it for a much better reason than I can see and for me to look what has come out of the pain . So first , we talk about us having to be vulnerable and in Community, to say I covered the Vulnerability in this is an understatement when you consider before yesterday I could not voice it to myself let alone anyone else . Embrace don’t run , don’t cover , don’t hide , get uncomfortable, feel and recognize not deny or refuse it. When you resist feelings or thoughts, practice acceptance. When you feel discomfort, know it will pass.

When the pressure comes from within us. Ask yourself What am I going to do right now? Then consider this which I read today: God’s teaching you to fly, again.

Thank you, God, for pushing me out of the nest. Your Higher Power is Your Higher Power mine is God and I know this God Loves all kinds of people and that includes you and me. Gods Love is what makes us better. So get uncomfortable stay the course and be Grateful for when he tells to Taxi the Runway and take off . Love you all , Love your Higher Power , Love Each other . Pray for your enemies.